I am so unworthy

Today I woke up pretty late because of the lack of sleep I got last night. I took the dogs for a walk made some lunch watched some sports center, hit the weights and read a little. Then it hit me, while I know that I am trying to live a God honoring life and not sin I still do. And I caught myself in the mindset of oh I'm fine I don't really sin but the truth of the matter is that just being in that mindset is sinful. I feel like sometimes we stop looking at Jesus as the real portrait of what our live is supposed to be like and we start thinking well as long as I don't do any of the big sins I'll be fine. I just got done having my quiet time for the day and I amazed at how much God takes from us humans and why he doesn't just take us out. I started reading the book of Jeremiah today and it starts off by telling how Israel and Judah had turned the backs on God and started living their own ways. How often is that me? I am constantly having to check myself out and if I don't then I think all is well. The truth of the matter is that I am a failure, I will never be good enough to deserve God. The great thing that I know but was also reminded of tonight is that none of us (even his chosen people) deserve him, but he wants us anyways. I may never be able to fully understand why this is but I am so very thankful that no matter how many times I turn my back on God he stays right there saying Mike turn to me, I am the way. I am blown away by the mercy he continually gives me. So I say THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME EVEN THOUGH I DON'T DESERVE IT GOD!
ANother Great thing I got from his word tonight is that Ask him and he will give it to me. I am about three thousand dollars short on returning to school for my final semester and I have been really fretting this whole thing. Tonight I handed it fully over to God and I must say the Peace I have now is unbelievable. I thank God for sticking with me and caring for me even though I don't deserve it. I'm very interested to see how he will provide the money for me to go back to school.

Today's verse- Matthew 7:7-8 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.