Do I really have FAITH

Today was the official holiday of Christmas. I have to admit it was a good day. I was woken up by my mom and the other kids saying lets open gifts, lets open gifts. I was like man I wish I could keep sleeping(I had just really went to sleep because my sisters dog was whimpering all night) So I got up. I had so many gifts, and if you know me I'm not really a gift guy, I would rather the money be spent on someone else not myself. But I am very thankful for them all. This Christmas was the first one I have ever spent without my little sister Kathy. It was actually kind of sad because I haven't seen much of her in a while and I just want to spend sometime with her.
Well after all the gifts most everyone went back to sleep for a little while. Not me though, I was psyched, after lunch I was going with my dad to deliver food to the less fortunate. We had our Christmas lunch, which was AMAZING(not kidding my mom is a unbelievable cook) and I thought to myself how blessed am I? God provides me with way more than I could ever deserve. We ate kind of fast though because we had to leave and get the food out to the people. We got to the church and our music minister was there handing it out to the people who would deliver it. I don't know but when we were there, my dad and I were the only two people besides the pastor and his family there delivering. I feel like way too many "Christians" just take on the name and don't ever do anything about it. That bothers me, I don't ever want to not be serving God. I find myself caring too much about the things I care about and not enough about what God cares about already. If you are a CHristian you really need to be living like one, thats one thing I think God has been hammering into me lately. When you take on the name of God, don't just take it on, live it out!
Tonight in my quiet time I read about how horrible things were in Israel and Judah, horrible as in how the people were living not the land because God has blessed them with this land. God was going to punish them and they rightfully deserved it, but how often do we deserve it. I think we are living in very evil times right now as well. God has blessed us so tremendously and how do we thank him by doing what we want and really not caring what he has to say about it. It breaks my heart to know how much I have broken Gods heart. I hate to sin now because I know that it just must break his heart even more. We (as Christians) really do need to examine the way we live and see if it is how God would really want us to live.
I also read in Matthew tonight, stories about Jesus doing miracles everywhere he went. I've always said hanging out with Jesus would have been the coolest thing ever. I think this because he was always healing someone or teaching some amazing lesson. While reading tonight something really stood out to me, almost every time before Jesus would heal someone they would have to admit they had FAITH that he could. This stood out big to me tonight because I think way to often we ask God for stuff but we really don't have FAITH that he will give it to us and it doesn't happen. I'm not saying we should use God like a genie or something (too many people already do that) but we should really trust that if we ask God, he can provide it for us. In my own life now, I have FAITH God is going to provide the money for me to finish school. I don't know how but I know he will. We just have to keep on believing!
Verse of the day Matthew 8:10- When Jesus heard this, he was astonished and said to those following him, "I tell you the truth, I have not found anyone in Israel with such great faith.